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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

I just realised I'm making more and more lists for my blog posts(call it laziness? whatever) so I shall attempt to post proper this time.

I'm so freaking pissed at myself. No my life does not suck(and I'm not being sarcastic), I do not hate myself and I'm not depressed/emo(call it whatever you want). I'm just royally PISSED at my own self.

And why might that be so? Because time management doesn't work for me! I planned to study from 4-7(including HW) today and guess what? I fell asleep till 5.30! There you have it, study schedule ruined all because of fatigue. And then of course I'll study till 12mn to make it up and I won't have energy the next day and I'll fall asleep in the afternoon AGAIN and the vicious cycle repeats itself.

Oh, and even though I claim to be unstressed about schoolwork(which I feel is true since the anxiety camp put on me is by far a lot WORSE than my EOY and MYE combined) HG says that I am. Apparently, I put too much pressure on myself and have too high standards. Maybe I AM feeling the stress of exams but not acknowledging it since its so minute(actually I'd use microscopic but it's so science-ey) compared to what I experienced the 2 weeks before camp that I don't consider it stress at all.

Ahh, the wonders of the human mind. And you thought evolution could produce such a complex organ which is only one of the many that all work in sync to bring order to your body? Not possible. And I'm not even talking about the intricacies of DNA and genetics yet.

I've said it a thousand times and I'm going to repeat it again:

I WANT MORE TESTS

I thought teachers LOVED giving tests? Give us more then! I NEED them. Without them I won't know what to expect and I won't be forced to motivated to study! If the other parents complain then just throw it all to me. Best if 2 subjects per day. Not to say I don't mind, but seriously, I need more tests, and I WANT them. I think I must be the only 16-year-old on the planet who wants more tests.

Examen gefalle mir nicht. Aber ich will Examen noch, weil von Examen ich lernen am besten kann.

I seriously don't know why I keep using German, but whatever, at least it helps to improve my linguistic skills.

My Kitchen blogged at Wednesday, April 23, 2008

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