~May Your Light Shine :D~

Saturday, February 23, 2008

One minute I'm worrying non stop for it, another I'm actually looking forward to it. Is there something wrong?

I'm kind of having mixed feeling to the camp now and it's left me totally confused. I just hope that the sun sets quickly and swiftly because I hate sunsets during camp. THey remind me of families at home eating dinner, students going home from school, the 7pm show that I've grown accustomed to. It makes me feel more homesick than ever but when darkness sets in, the homesickness feeling actually goes away.

I just wish I have something to occupy my time and distract me so that time passes really fast and I'll get really really tired(especially since I have PE that day as well) and I won't think of how much I want to be home doing my homework(math), watching TV or just eating dinner.

Anyway, forget CDs and clothes and boots and hats. I just want courage more than ever now. I need it. But it seems to come and go as and when it likes and I can't always successfully summon it. What do I do? I really need courage, a lot of it.

Then again, just to cheer myself up, I should be glad
1. I'm not stuck in a 4-year war down in the front when handphones weren't even invented yet
2. I'm not being persecuted for my race or religion
3. It's not in foreign part of Singapore that is really old and abandoned
4. It's only 1 night
5. I'm allowed loads of freedom since I'm a senior
6. I'll have music to accompany me
7. I'll probably be really tired so hopefully I can drop down and just sleep like a log

I HAVE TO STAY POSITIVE.

My Kitchen blogged at Saturday, February 23, 2008

May your light shine...
in the darkness...