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Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Somehow, all the horrible things have been happening to me lately and NO it is NOT about homework or exams. ARGH.

1) I missed a freaking 1 hour Bio lesson on the Nervous System(!!!!!!!) because of a glitch in the communication system in our class who claims to have a organised relay system that did NOTHING. It doesn't pay to be kind at all.

Don't blame me for not paying attention in class because well I DID. The time of the Bio lesson was scheduled at 2.15 pm for those with CCAs later and 3.15pm for those without. Since I didn't have CCA on Monday, I thought I'd be a kind soul and let those with CCA go for the earlier one and then I'd go for the 3.15om one even though I really wanted the first shift. As evidence to support my statement, my teacher even told us to write down if we were going for the 1st of 2nd shift, in BLACK AND WHITE.

So on Monday(day of the extra lesson), I went to my friends class after school(since I don't exactly LIKE my own class) to wait till 3.15pm for my supposed Shift 2 Bio extra lesson. At about 2.45pm, I checked my phone, and my classmate had sent me a frantic SMS at 2.25pm to tell me that there was NO shift 2 and everyone in class was supposed to go for the 2.15pm Bio lesson.

Since I thought that the message had been written on the whiteboard by the teacher of a classmate or whoever, I went to my class to check but there was NO NOTICE of any last minute change in the Bio lesson time, because they obviously thought that passing the message by mouth was an effective, efficient way to let everyone know. By the time I knew, it was too late to go for the lesson and even if I went I'd be scolded anyway even though I wasn't in the wrong at all so I just stayed in class and helped my friend with her trigo question.

My school's organisation message-passing system is the worst I've ever encountered. Ever.

2) Seems like I'll have to go for a camp after all, but its only 2 days 1 night and I'm a senior anyway so I won't get scolded by anyone. Obviously I do not wish to abuse my authority by screaming at the Sec 1s like how my scniors did. I don't wish to take revenge this way. I know how I felt in Sec 1 and I don't want others to feel the same. Besides, this is NO WAY to gain their respect, the seniors have never really managed to gain my true respect through this stupid "disciplinary" method.

Don't encourage me. I'm currently living in self denial and trying to convince myself that camps are FUN and the activities are MEANINGFUL and that of course, all this is WORTH IT WORTH IT WORTH IT for a Gold for CCA.

BEcause apparently, sleeping under a stretched canvas sheet will prove my competence as a Guide(if Guides are supposed to be hypocritical, act cute, demand-respect-by-yelling girls, then NO I DON'T WANT TO BE A GUIDE) and only then will I be able to obtain a Gold for CCA. Hell, I didn't go through 4 years of suffering for a puny silver. If I suffer, I expect to harvest the fruits of my labour.

3) I hate my class. I repeat, I HATE MY CLASS.

The people at the back are forever making so much noise talking and laughing as if the others would rather listen to them than the teachers teach. But then when THEY'RE talking to the class, their friends(in the same clique) keep shouting "Keep Quiet!" or "Listen!" when ironically, THEY are the only ones making the noise.

And frankly speaking, the people who keep yelling like every minute or so to the class to "BE Quiet!" are in fact the most noisy people of all. Their constant shushing and yelling is so frustrating that I could crush my pen and paper and even the chatter of my classmates are not as distracting as their voices. They think they're helping, but they aren't.

I'm sick of living in the world where you can't just be who you are, what you are, however you want. I hate how people act just so they will appear as a 'leader'. I'm tired of this constant sucky school life that I'm forced into against my own will and even the interesting subjects have to be made boring just so that it will fit the stereotype as a subject. It doesn't make sense, never did, never will.

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