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Saturday, August 18, 2007

Heaps of people have said that the best and closes friends you will have in your life are the ones you make in secondary school. Those in primary school drift away sooner or later and fade out of the picture. it is your secondary school friends who will be there for you.

That on top, my fellow friends, it utter crap.

Who says so?

So far I have made it to Sec 3, and I am still in CLOSE contact with my primary school friends. Sure, we don't call each other that often, but we're still close, and chummy. We try to meet during holidays, and we keep ourselves updated on everyones lives. I never have to try to please any of them because they understand my personality and character, they know me INSIDE OUT. They respect me for who I am, and I am never ashamed of telling them anything about me. I never have to worry about whether they think I'm weird because they accept me for who I am and I know I can trust them. That's from a friendship 7 years old.

Maybe its because of our ancient bonds, maybe its because of our childhood innocence. But I'm sure, that they will stay my best friends for as long as I live.

On the other hand, although I've made good friends in secondary school, somehow, I'm not as close to them as my friends in primary school. There's always a certain distance, a certain gap that even though I know them well, and although they accept my ecentricities, I'm still not able to trust them fully. In friendship, I value respect and acceptance the most. Apparently, it is the most nonexistant of all the values.

It was in Secondary School that I was exposed to hypocrites, backstabbers, and some minor office politics(in our case, CCA). If you did not learn to defend yourself, you got kicked out, period. I learnt, that in the cruel world outside, respect, loyalty and trust did not exist. Even though I refused to believe that, I did not want to take any risks. It grew harder and harder to trust a person, much less really befriend one and call her my best and closest friend. All the stereotype clique people do not, or rather, CANNOT accept anyone just a tiny bit different from them. They can't live with change, they can't adapt. They can't even try their best to respect a person for who he/she is. I an utterly disgusted.

How many close friends have I got in Secondary School? Answer, 1.

How many close friends have I got in Primary School? Answer, 3.

There you have it. Who says the best friends you'll make are from Secondary School? That is utter nonsense. It is certainly not true, not for me anyway.

And I've told all of you how much I HATE those act-cute, act-cool people. I don't envy them, and I am certainly not jealous. On the contrary, I pity them for leading such a sad, stereotype, disillusioned life. To me, they all look like factory products, each having their own differences, but all wanting to look the same, act the same, even THINK the same.

I was in the toilet of Hougang mall today, and I saw a group of REALLY act cool girls standing in front of the mirrors, blocking others' way and preening themselves ineffectively. They were laughing and talking loudly(spoiling the reputation of qing shao nian, migh I also add) and dressed in the very typical "i-want-to-be-cool" outfit of uber-short shorts, long loose/tight T shirt and a belt (Me: "eww...") I was so disgusted by their behaviour that when I stepped out of the toilet, I rolled my eyes at them. I hope they saw it.

I can't stand it anymore! What is wrong with these people? Why do you have to try so hard to look cool when being cool is all about being yourself? In fact, they absolutely do not look cool. They look like they're trying WAY too hard to look nice, to fit into the crowd and to run away from the person that they really are. Is that cool? I don't think so.

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